Between Being Annoyed And Comfort Lies

I know I've been annoying you so much lately. But let me emphasize the reason. I am lonely. I know you had the feeling once somehow. The feeling where and when you feel like there's only one person who you can talk to, because you just want a friend to rely on and to borrow shoulders from. Until I realize, I got carried away and everything went on too much. I ended up making you drift away from me, or maaking you feel interfered by my ego and dependence. I know I've been over-controlling of how things should've went. I have no plans of that. I just want things to work out good, harmless, for any of us. I didn't mean to make things uncomfortable for you. I admit that I went out of control. I even forgot your needs of space. I forgot your needs as a mature individual. I just miss you. And when I do, I always know that you will be there, talk to me, listen to all my stories and even hold me so tight when I finally burst into tears.I
got carried with all these movie-kind-of-romance, but it's just not real. Nobody lives life like in the movies.
You don't tell me how actually you feel annoyed by my not-so-important reportson how my day is. Story of my life. Maybe you just want to comfort me, and not making me think that you had enough of me. I appreciate it and I thank you for that. But, it is more irritating to feel myself that you feel annoyed.
I just need someone to talk to, I didn't mean to dump all of my anger to you, it just happened.
For that I am sorry. I am sorry for being so spoiled. I am sorry for being such an irresponsible person. I am sorry for being so annoying lately.
I'll try to get over things I'm going through and sleep on them, without making you busy thinking of how my life is going.

Thank you for always being there whenever I neede you, and I am sorry for making you tired of doing it.
I love you.


It's because I know I can always find you, that's why.