Secretly Honest

I really hate it when I see you talk cute to other girls.

I hate how those cute expressions come out of you.

I really hate that you don’t realize how much I’m still afraid of completely losing you or hand-over you to another person.

I hate that I still can’t stop thinking about you.

I hate how I’m being so cliché all the time.

I hate myself for being jealous of those girls, even though I want you to be happy with the one who will replace me.

I hate holding back my tears and keep going through with my lonesome nights.

I hate how I still wait for you, where actually I’m waiting for nothing.

I hate this burdens I still bring since the day I let you go.

I hate being too emotional.

I hate how I always greet you good mornings and wishing you good nights.

I hate how you always make me smile.

I hate how I really don't want to let you go.

I hate having this inconsistent feeling.

I hate being blue.

I hate going through day by day, waiting for you to call, just to wonder how am I doing?

I hate daydreaming and being stupidly in love with you all over again.

I hate that I couldn't hate you.

I hate how people think that I'm being too much or exaggerating, because they're not me.

I hate remembering how we used to be.

I hate you all of the sudden being really sweet, then 5 minutes later, you're being sweet to other girls.

I hate how you always make me scared.

I am scared.

I’m being secretly honest, I hope you understand why…