The Last Time For Everything

I never thought this day would come.

The day when everything is over.

Today is the last day for everything.

The last day to see his face.

The last day to touch him.

The last day to hear his voice.

The last day for me and you.

Today is the last day.

The last day to see my sisters' smile.

The last day to hear them laugh.

The last day to hold them when they cry.

The last day to laugh together.

The last day to be with all together.

I can't hold back my fear and tears anymore.

I am really scared of not being with anybody I love.

Instead of being with my family, I'd rather be with my friends

Because they know me better than anyone else.

They hold me when I'm sad.

They washed away my pain.

They wiped off my tears.

They fixed my broken heart.

It always feels like home when I'm with my sisters.

I don't think I can go through things without them.

To my soul sisters...

I love you all so much

I will surely miss you girls so much.

You're all the angels of my life.

And to Donny...

I'm sorry.

Forgive me for everything.

I can't be with you anymore.

I can't see you often anymore.

I'm really going to miss you.

I just want to say thank you the sweetest last kiss.

The sweetest goodbye.

I love you so much.

I hope you be well.

I hope you'll find your happiness.

Let's close this chapter.

Say one last prayer.

I love you, girls!

I don't know how long we've been friends.

I think it's just so long that we call each other "Sisters"

I don't exactly remember how, when or where we met, but who cares?

All I care is that we are now together and we always there for each other.

We've been together with all the laugh, the tears, the jokes and the fights.

We wiped each others tears.

We fixed each others broken hearts.

We put a smile on each others beautiful faces.

We give joy in each others lives.

Nothing can ever replace our memories.

And this is it.

Here we are, girls...

We're growing up.

We're going to chase our dreams.

We're going to get out there.

We will show the world what we've got.

I will never forget all the crazy things we've done together.

And all the times we've spent together.

I'll miss every moment we're apart.

And everything that we used to do.

Thank you, God...

You gave me the angels to lighten up my life.

They're all beautiful.

And I thank you, girls...

For always being there for me.

Always there when nobody ever cares.

Always...

I love you so much, girls...

P.S. I dedicate this post to my beautiful angels...

Grace

Sindy

Tika

Lionita

Cevanie

Bimi

Arkazha

Devita

Oddy

and Irwinsyah

Thank you for lighten up my life.

I love you...

With love,

Elisabeth

You poured me with love!

Aurora

I'm too lost in you

Good morning texts
Late night phone calls
Holding hands
French kisses
Silence that isn't awkward
"How's your days?"s
Heart-to-heart talks
Very long goodbyes
All the tears and smiles
When I used to fell asleep and woke up as yours
Oh how I miss those beautiful things we've done together
All the good and the bad times we've gone through
The "I love you"s
The love and the lust

It's been quite a while now. I've been alone without physically (and maybe mentally trying)
The tears since that day and that night, I've been trying to wrap in.
Everything changes.
I change.
I'm trying to go through phase by phase.
And I think I've fallen behind

There is one thing everyday that makes me smile.
It's you.
It's still you.
It's always been you.
It is how you say my name.
It is how you tell me about your day.
It is the thing about you that makes me think that you still care.
I love everything about it, about you.

I know I'm still too lost in you, but it is my way to go through my everyday.
Thank you for still being there.

I miss you, and I hope you do too...

You and I, were conspired by universe

You came true

You are missed

This song is so touching. I heard this from "My Sister's Keeper", it was performed by Edwina Hayes, but I found the real version by Chantal Kreviazuk, which was the soundtrack of "Dawson's Creek". I love this song very much...

"Feels Like Home" by Chantal Kreviazuk

Something in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself

Makes me wanna lose myself in your arms

There's something in your voice, makes my heart beat fast

Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been

And how long I've been so alone

And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along

And change my life the way you've done

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me

It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me

It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks, down a long, dark streets

And a siren wails in the night

But I'm alright 'cause I have you here with me

And I can almost see, through the dark there's light

Well, if you know how much this moment means to me

And how long I've waited for your touch

And if you knew how happy you are making me

I never thought I'd love anyone so much

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me

It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me

It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

This song represented how I really feel for someone right this moment. Sadly, I can't be with him anymore. However, I still love him dearly...

Finally...

I never knew this kind of sign would happened. I feel it in the last 3 days this week and it just happened today. This sign which really make me think that there's no more hope. There's no way anything could be better. Nothing will ever happen anymore.

Earlier today, I was at the movie with my friends when suddenly I had a mention on Twitter from him. He said that he lost the anklets that I made for him 2 years ago. I was kind of accepted it with a really heavy heart. I tried to cheer myself up with not thinking about it, but it just keeps coming in my mind. I've been thinking that this is a sign. A sign for me and him to forget each other and move on. I'm thinking that there's nothing left of me with him. Nothing. Not even one.

I'm wondering if he tried to find it or not. I'm thinking that he might forget about it. He had me with him, but now I am nowhere to be found.

After he mentioned me, I didn't know what to say. I didn't reply him. I just want to let it go and think that this is a sign. He contacted me then, I replied. I asked how could he lost it and I said that's okay. He said he still had it when he was out and found nothing tangled around his leg when he got home. He said the anklets was already attached to him ever since I made it for him. He said he's sad that he lost it. I tried to let it go and talked about other thing. I couldn't help myself, I said I miss him and he said he missed me too. He said it with my full name on the text. I don't know what else I can do, except stop waiting for everything. I just want to stay. I don't ever want to hope for anything. I don't think I'll ever get over him, in any ways. I'll be missing everything, everyday. I felt really bad last night though. It turned out that he lost it somewhere.

I blame myself for everything. I couldn't blame him though. It is never his fault. I'm sad because of my own thoughts.

I confess that I still wait for him sometimes. I've waited for him to say "Hi" everyday, but sometimes he didn't. I made myself sad with my stupid stubbornness. I torture my heart with my stupid wishes. I really have nothing else to do or say about it.

I've been feeling so devastated lately. I hit myself sometimes. I cry myself to sleep every night. I feel so alone. I don't feel as pretty as I used to feel.

Last night, I had a tantrum because of such a little thing. I cried painfully and hit my chest really hard.

I was so mad at everything, so I decided to blame myself. I have nobody or nothing to give my anger away. I couldn't scream. I couldn't fight. I'm hopeless. I don't want anybody to know.

I feel so pathetic. I have nobody to turn to because I know my friends would be sick of hearing this over and over again. I couldn't tell him because why should I told him?

All I know now is I have to let things go the way they suppose to go. I have to sit still and expect nothing.

I've let my expectations flew way too high brought me down and hit the ground. I feel like my heart had lied to me. It lied to me. It's like a false hope. It gives me nothing more to dream about because it is too painful to dream.